Kate's space

Good Afternoon to no one who will read this stupid thing lol

 

I am here sitting at my desk wondering why some things happen and when will some things end, I am bored but what else is new around here. I cant wait to go home (surprise surprise lol) but still i feel like just staying here all night and then maybe just maybe i might wake up and realise everything has been a dream. I feel like i am losing my position here, I am not really keying in any orders and i am not really aloud to be picking and packing and invoicing as much as i am so where do i stand is what i really want to know,  I put so much effort last year durning one of the busy times here and its like its all forgotten about.....hmm i wonder

 

I am losing my baby on the weekend, my Female cat (bella) and my male cat (tiger) had kittens last year and i was going to be keeping the Black Kitten i called her Salem out of Sabrina the teenage witch is leaving me. I know she will be going to a great home but i was starting to get so attached to her, she rolls on the floor with me like her mother use to I am going to really miss her, she is going to my dad, i never actually thought he was going to say yes after i had a joke with him but he yet again has surprised me, he said yes. He will be picking her up this weekend so ineed to get some pic's before she goes :)   which reminds me i really need to up date Zena's aswell lol

 

I know what you are alll going to say I have way to many animals well BITE ME, My animals are what keep me going sometimes, I need Zena to keep me thinking there is light at the end of the tunnel, its very rare for a female german shep to take after the female of the house but Zena is all mine, she is my baby girl, she sleeps with me every night and now is starting to learn to sleep at the end of the dam bed lol

 

 

There is alot of things in my life i would want to change or go back and try to re do but i Know i will never have another shoot at them but shit happens i guess, I was thinking the other day that I am going to be 25 this year (its fucking scarey for me) but i was going to be married by now to my ex Fiancee (justin) and i allways thought we would have had kids right away, and I look at  my life now, and how much else can change, it really scared me that i was so ready with him and now i am second guessing my mother hood ability's  and everything else,

 

I better go  its home time :) yay

 

good Afternoon to no one that reads these things,

 

I am back and badder then ever lol, no not really. i just have a few things to say.. i have a full time job, a boy friend and a house and I am still incomplete...... I wonder why sometimes I still love my lost  love so much but then there are times when you think your over them well STOP FUCKING KIDDING your self..... some people you never get over. and mine happened about 3 years ago.... We had a really bad break up and then i run away to Queensland (BTW its fucking great up there) and i keep on telling myself that i was over him and then it hit me one night while i was working at The Shack Nightclub in Sufers that i got a phone call from him ( well i thought it was him, it was actually one of his mates making fun of me) it had been about 2 days since i had last thought about him and i thought i was going to be getting soon...... OKOKi was slutting around with a few guys that i had meet while i was working in the bars but i was heart broken ad didnt really care what had happened to me... even thou i must say those guys ed my eyes to alot... (THANKZ LUKE, JD, JAMES, SAM, STEWART, ALAN and you know who you are) and ok before anyone says thats I am a slut I didnt sleep with all of those guys  they who they are

 

but anyways  I wanted to be over Justin, but I am starting to think that I might never really be over him but i want to get past him.... I dont know if that makes any sense at all but some people you never get over. I was in love with himfor so long before he even noticed me........ I would have died for him and now i still feel dead inside for him since he leftme.... but thee is nothing I can do except try and move on...... I will allways have my memories of us together and I think that is going to have to be enough.... Even thou i will allways mis him and a few other people in my life.

 

I will say it one last time...... I LOVE YOU JUSTIN BARON AND I ALL WAYS WILL

 

Peace out guys

 

hey guys 

 

its me again :) yeah i got my heart broken again but this time i think it was my own fault....

 

who says once we get older we learn what we really want :S  I had this great guy but i think its just me... once i get a guy worth keeping that makes me feel like i own the world  they go but only the arse holes stick around :S maybe some of us are not meant to be happy and I must be one of them

 

my girl friend tracy thinks he was just an arse hole who wanted to play with me and i should forget about him....but how can u just turn your emotions off and on like that   if anyone knows the answer then teach me please  I am drowning myself in sorrow and its not good for my health :) lol

 

then again guys are not good for your health either :) lol sorry boys  maybe one day i might find my knight in shining armor   but I am guessing it wasnt him :(

 

anyways life goes on and we all live to see another day :)   lets all hope that people who work hard at what they want will actually get it :) and if anyone sees a knight in shining armor can u please give him my address :) lol

 

peace out guys

 

hey guys :)  its me katie

 

iam here to tell you something very specail.....

Ok well I left high school in year 11 thinking i was going to make it big and everything like that. I have no regets about leaving school even thou i have continued my education outside of school.. I regret leaving behind my friends.  Every now and again u start to wonder what could of happen if u stayed in contact right? well i know the answer..

 

I knew someone in high school that i had a thing for. We use to hang out all the time and muck around. one day i was laying down thinking of him and i found something in my bedroom that was his. I lost his friendship when i left school like so many others. but instead of throwing it away i kept this special little thing close to my heart.... it has been carried around with me for 7 years and i will never have regrettd a day of keeping it..

Last night on the 20th of feb.2007 it was returned to its owner...along with my heart....

time may be able to change alot of things but it will never be able to change the way u feel. only u can do that.  i kept this guys necklace with me even thou i had some thought that i would never see him again. it went across states with me. to my brothers wedding in WA and my fathers in melb...yet i never thought i would see him again i had hope...the only thime hope will die is if u let go of it.

 

Never let go of your dreams, your love for one another and of coarse your beer :) lol  GO CARLTON DRAUGHT :) lol

 

peace out guys